Lalalalala

Suddenly feels like writing a post. Tapi nak post pasal ape eh? I am listening to My Love by Sia which is my current favorite song, and he is now driving back to Perak. Mom and dad asleep. My bro keluar. Rasa sunyi pulak sorang sorang. And this song, from the first note, just making me thinking about me and him. Ye lah, who else can I think about? Dia je lah yang memenuhi inbox phone, chatbox fb, chatbox skype, chatbox whatsapp & call logs sepanjang cuti ni. Tweet dia kurang sikit. Hehe. Yeah, I MISS HIM SO MUCH. Dah lama tak jumpa dia. Last jumpa pun sekejap je :( Banyak benda nak buat kalau boleh jumpa. Movies, bowling, shopping, makan. Hmmm, bestnyaaa. Suddenly teringat pulak kenangan time asasi dulu. Bittersweet that we had, beautiful memories. Arghhhh how I wish we are a married couple now. Takdela rindu2 mcm ni :( Anyway, I hope he's driving n arriving safely. Jumpa lepas raya ea sayang. Takmo mengorat anak dara orang kat kampung! :)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Betterman

I am trying to change to become a better person for God, and everybody else around. 
I want to be better than my yesterdays.

Alhamdulillah :)

These words speak my heart

 

A Letter From This Little Heart

I wish we only know each other by the time that we are totally ready to get married. It's not that easy to maintain a good relationship for a long period of time especially when we are separated by distances. What is he doing, how he is, who is he going out with, why he didn't reply my texts or answer my calls, and all sorts of questions keep running in my mind. This is actually the point where our trustworthy and honesty are being tested. I always tried my best to be honest, to always trust him and to always think positive about him. But as a normal human being, sometimes I do feel curious and worry about him. By hook or by crook, I have to be patient facing these challenges and keep praying for the time where he became truly mine will come. InsyaAllah.. But no matter what happens, I will always love him, I will always try my best to make him the happiest man in the world, and I will always pray that we will get married one day. Amin :)

The day will come. InsyaAllah :)

 Celebrations - Birthdays: Abah (16th May), Mama (2nd June), Miktang (13th June), Me (15th June), Abimi (27th June), Muiz (30th June).
Wedding Anniversary Abah & Mama (7th June)

I just turned 19, and the celebration was one of the most special moment ever happened in my life. For the first time in my life, I introduced my Izat Jaris to my big family. At first, I admit, I was hell nervous. But Alhamdulillah everything went out smoothly. My family warmly welcomed him, especially my bros :) Surely diorg mesti ngam punyalah nanti. Hihi. Even Mama and Abah were having good conversation with him. Actually, Mama was the one insisting me to invite him. Macam tak percaya kan? Hihi

Years ago, talking about love is something that is almost prohibited among my family members. Study is our priority. My sisters and brothers secretly having boyfriends and girlfriends. Ehem ehemm me too actually. Alhamdulillah, as everybody grows up, we are getting more mature about lovey dovey things. Mama dah boleh terima yang anak anak dia ni dah besar, dah gatal nak kawen. Hihi. Abah pun cool je. :) 

But then I realised something. This kind of maturity has brought our family closer and happier. Kalau time gathering tu ada je benda nak gossip. Pasal boyfriend org tu lahh, pasal girlfriend org ni lahh. And anybody yang broke up will always have the chance to talk and discuss about his/her relationship with the family members. Wonderful! 

Last but not least, thanks to my bro Abimi for the MANGO Shopping Bag :) Looking forward for  sponsorship from you for more family events. Hihi. Kerja Petronas kann, kene la sponsor lebih sikit :P I ended up my post with my favourite words,

I LOVE YOU IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI ;)

Every good person has it's own bad yesterdays which turned them as good as today. So,don't judge people from their pasts, because people change :)

Never be afraid to fall in love. Or else, you'll missed it's sweetness and bitterness. You don't want to be tasteless isn't it? :)

A Comeback

I need a totally free time without nothing to worry about to post in my blog. So, sebab tu lah jarang nak update blog ni. Tapi bukannye ade org nak baca pon. So who cares? Hehe. Lots and lots and lots and lots of things happened throughout my life journey especially Semester 3 Asasi Sains Pertanian. Banyak sangat kalau nak cerita kat blog. Baca blog org lain is so much fun daripada tulis sendiri. Such a bad blogger I am. 

Currently, I just finished my foundation study. Alhamdulillah. All the laughs, smiles and tears sepanjang asasi tu sedikit sebanyak thought me how stand up by myself, how plan my study, how to face the future. And of course the best teacher is Alumni First Class (Alfic). The best classmates I've ever had. Even kat sekolah pun I didn't have a class like this. Everyone in the class had opened up my eyes on many things. So today I want to show my appreciation towards everybody in the class. But for this post, it's for someone special. Yang lain2 next post ye :)

..IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI...

Ok. He is my special one. Mungkin orang ramai pandang kitorang dating and borak2 kosong je. But there are sometimes we had some serious talk. Dalam study, he thought me on lots of things. Kadang2 when I felt down especially bila tak dapat jawab exam, he'll said " Takpelah, awak dah usaha kan. Awak dah buat sehabis baik. Jangan pikir sangat lah", lebih kurang macam tu lah. Dia jugaklah who keeps reminding on my social life, macam mana nak bergaul dgn org, dgn guys mcm mana, dgn girls macam mana, the Do's and Don'ts. And he also exposed me on the responsibilities of anak sulung in family. He made me realised how sometimes it is hard to be anak sulung. He had done so much thing for me I can't even say it all. He's my hero in almost everything. He protected me so well. Sometimes, bila datang my mood swing (biaselah perempuan), I realised his effort to cheer me up. But me myself yang kadang2 tak hargai mende tu. Ikut sangat emo ni kann. Dia selalu cakap dia tak sweet. Sayangggg, you are the sweetest person I've ever known tau tak. Sweet tu tak semestinya bagi bunga or chocs or nyanyi lagu utk saya. Bila awak dah niat nak mengahwini saya, which means you don't take this relationship for granted, it it sweet enough. Thank you so much for everything during Asasi. Good luck for the upcoming Bachelor study. I love you so much :)   

mood swing again ~

When the night has come and the land's dark, when the moon is the only light we'll see, look at the stars; can you count them? I miss you that much.

wwoowoooott

Memories :)

Tadi selak2 lecture notes physics, sekarang selak2 blog pulak. Hehehe. Tgh2 blogwalking (and stalking) sambil kunyah2 Cloud 9 and tunggu text form my hero, tgk ramai pulak yang post gambar kat blog. Gambar member2, gambar family, gambar classmates, gambar roomates and even gambar gf/bf. Nak post gambar jugaakkkk!! :P

the first photo of him that I have :) Ni time amali pertanian. *he's in white

The first photo of me and him. Time ni pegi main bowling dgn classmates lain dkt Mines. You were nothing at  this time, now you are my everything :) *serius tak sangka :D

Woot woot!! Abg hot main bowling lahh :P

Baju Sime Darby gituuu.. Chop, knp sekarang saya tak pernah nampak dah awk pakai baju ni? Dah gemok ea? :P

Tu jee. Heee :P

I LOVE YOU IJD :)

It's our

Monthly-versary

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI :)