Just A Statement

I noticed something about you. If we are in a conflict or something, you'll text/talk/tweet/IM me with very short words and no emoticons at all but at the same time you text/talk/tweet/IM other people especially your friends with long sentence with 'HAHA' and everything and with smileys just about everywhere. And you'll treat me like tutttt. Even with strangers you can be more friendly with you know? HAHA. Well that's the thing I need to deal with although sometimes it's wrecking my nerves. But for the sake of us, i'll try my best not to get hurt by your kind attitude :) *although sometimes i do get hurt. :P Sabar je lah kan. Hihi.This is justna statement kayy. No offense. PEACE ^_^

Psttttttttt

You look hot playing futsal bebehhh ;)

FUTSAL INTER-BATCH KBP 

HAHAHAHA :P

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Time passes by. Dah nak masuk 2013 dah pun. Goshh, mcm tak percaya je aku bakal mengakhiri zaman belasan tahun. Ohh tidakk! :P 2012 really is meaningful. I had one of the greatest change in my life phase. From the very childish, 'hingusan' foundation student, to a more mature, educated yet stressful bachelor student. Haha! Siapa sangka that I'm studying Bachelor of Agriculture and Bio-system Engineering.. What?? Engineering?? It was really out of my mind! Time sekolah dulu tak pandang course2 engineering ni. Hehe. Tapi Allah S.W.T dah kata macam tu, kene ikut saje lah :) InsyaAllah everything's gonna be just alright.

Eheemm eheemmm, tak lupa juga the lovey dovey things. Honestly, banyak sangat dugaan bila dah masuk degree ni. There's so much small and big things trying to break us apart. Tapi bila kita sabar banyak2, these things sebenarnya nak mengajar kita menjadi lebih matang dan berfikiran positif. Alhamdulillah, that's what I'm earning. InsyaAllah akan dipermudahkan segalanya.

Hari pun sudah lewat malam, lagu A Thousand Years ni mendayu2 memanggil mimpi2 indah utk malam ni. Hehe. My sayang dkt K10 tu pun dah nak tidur. Kalau ade idea and mood akan di update lah blog ini. Night! :)

I'm not strong enough to lose you. Even when we are far by some distances for some moments, I can't help myself to not to miss you. And sometimes, that feeling conquered myself until some point that I'll burst into tears. See that? Look how weak I am. It's because your presence in my life and existence in my days brought more than a thousand meanings. You are among the precious people in my lifetimes. So please don't go. It's more than love that I have on you.

I love you so much..

"Because only time is capable of understanding how valuable love is" :)

It's All About Fate

Recently, I just stalked about a Chinese girl named Teresa on her Twitter. She's just 15, and died because of brain tumor. Then, bukak pulak Twitter boyfriend dia, Azlan. I almost cried baca tweets dia. Of course lah dia tgh sedih tahap gaban kann. And his tweets about Teresa really touched my heart. Dia tweet pasal memories diorg dulu dulu, pasal future planning diorg, and sekarang semua tu tinggal kenangan je. Cuba bayangkan that thing happened to us? 

Terus terang, I'm not ready to lose anyone yet including family, friends and him. I'm not strong enough. Macam Azlan ni, he lost his girlfriend, and me, if lose Izat, entahlahhh.. Kadang kadang ade jugak terbayang kehilangan dia, tapi lepas tu secara tak sedar, mesti I broke into tears. 

Malam semalam time keluar dgn Izat, I said to him "Saya tau saya takkan kuat kalau takde awak. So awak mesti kene ada dgn saya." And then he said "Jangan la mcm tu. Saya ada awak kene kuat, saya takda awak kene lagi kuat" And then I terus nangis. Taktau la dia perasan ke tak. 

I just can't imagine losing him. I survived lots of things sbb ada dia. I can't afford losing him. I really really wish I can have him forever. Saya tahu kalau saya hilang awak, saya takkan boleh lupakan awak. Tapi jodoh pertemuan ajal maut semua di tangan Allah. All I can do is to pray for a happy forever after with you.

I love you so much.

Lalalalala

Suddenly feels like writing a post. Tapi nak post pasal ape eh? I am listening to My Love by Sia which is my current favorite song, and he is now driving back to Perak. Mom and dad asleep. My bro keluar. Rasa sunyi pulak sorang sorang. And this song, from the first note, just making me thinking about me and him. Ye lah, who else can I think about? Dia je lah yang memenuhi inbox phone, chatbox fb, chatbox skype, chatbox whatsapp & call logs sepanjang cuti ni. Tweet dia kurang sikit. Hehe. Yeah, I MISS HIM SO MUCH. Dah lama tak jumpa dia. Last jumpa pun sekejap je :( Banyak benda nak buat kalau boleh jumpa. Movies, bowling, shopping, makan. Hmmm, bestnyaaa. Suddenly teringat pulak kenangan time asasi dulu. Bittersweet that we had, beautiful memories. Arghhhh how I wish we are a married couple now. Takdela rindu2 mcm ni :( Anyway, I hope he's driving n arriving safely. Jumpa lepas raya ea sayang. Takmo mengorat anak dara orang kat kampung! :)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Betterman

I am trying to change to become a better person for God, and everybody else around. 
I want to be better than my yesterdays.

Alhamdulillah :)

These words speak my heart

 

A Letter From This Little Heart

I wish we only know each other by the time that we are totally ready to get married. It's not that easy to maintain a good relationship for a long period of time especially when we are separated by distances. What is he doing, how he is, who is he going out with, why he didn't reply my texts or answer my calls, and all sorts of questions keep running in my mind. This is actually the point where our trustworthy and honesty are being tested. I always tried my best to be honest, to always trust him and to always think positive about him. But as a normal human being, sometimes I do feel curious and worry about him. By hook or by crook, I have to be patient facing these challenges and keep praying for the time where he became truly mine will come. InsyaAllah.. But no matter what happens, I will always love him, I will always try my best to make him the happiest man in the world, and I will always pray that we will get married one day. Amin :)

The day will come. InsyaAllah :)

 Celebrations - Birthdays: Abah (16th May), Mama (2nd June), Miktang (13th June), Me (15th June), Abimi (27th June), Muiz (30th June).
Wedding Anniversary Abah & Mama (7th June)

I just turned 19, and the celebration was one of the most special moment ever happened in my life. For the first time in my life, I introduced my Izat Jaris to my big family. At first, I admit, I was hell nervous. But Alhamdulillah everything went out smoothly. My family warmly welcomed him, especially my bros :) Surely diorg mesti ngam punyalah nanti. Hihi. Even Mama and Abah were having good conversation with him. Actually, Mama was the one insisting me to invite him. Macam tak percaya kan? Hihi

Years ago, talking about love is something that is almost prohibited among my family members. Study is our priority. My sisters and brothers secretly having boyfriends and girlfriends. Ehem ehemm me too actually. Alhamdulillah, as everybody grows up, we are getting more mature about lovey dovey things. Mama dah boleh terima yang anak anak dia ni dah besar, dah gatal nak kawen. Hihi. Abah pun cool je. :) 

But then I realised something. This kind of maturity has brought our family closer and happier. Kalau time gathering tu ada je benda nak gossip. Pasal boyfriend org tu lahh, pasal girlfriend org ni lahh. And anybody yang broke up will always have the chance to talk and discuss about his/her relationship with the family members. Wonderful! 

Last but not least, thanks to my bro Abimi for the MANGO Shopping Bag :) Looking forward for  sponsorship from you for more family events. Hihi. Kerja Petronas kann, kene la sponsor lebih sikit :P I ended up my post with my favourite words,

I LOVE YOU IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI ;)

Every good person has it's own bad yesterdays which turned them as good as today. So,don't judge people from their pasts, because people change :)

Never be afraid to fall in love. Or else, you'll missed it's sweetness and bitterness. You don't want to be tasteless isn't it? :)

A Comeback

I need a totally free time without nothing to worry about to post in my blog. So, sebab tu lah jarang nak update blog ni. Tapi bukannye ade org nak baca pon. So who cares? Hehe. Lots and lots and lots and lots of things happened throughout my life journey especially Semester 3 Asasi Sains Pertanian. Banyak sangat kalau nak cerita kat blog. Baca blog org lain is so much fun daripada tulis sendiri. Such a bad blogger I am. 

Currently, I just finished my foundation study. Alhamdulillah. All the laughs, smiles and tears sepanjang asasi tu sedikit sebanyak thought me how stand up by myself, how plan my study, how to face the future. And of course the best teacher is Alumni First Class (Alfic). The best classmates I've ever had. Even kat sekolah pun I didn't have a class like this. Everyone in the class had opened up my eyes on many things. So today I want to show my appreciation towards everybody in the class. But for this post, it's for someone special. Yang lain2 next post ye :)

..IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI...

Ok. He is my special one. Mungkin orang ramai pandang kitorang dating and borak2 kosong je. But there are sometimes we had some serious talk. Dalam study, he thought me on lots of things. Kadang2 when I felt down especially bila tak dapat jawab exam, he'll said " Takpelah, awak dah usaha kan. Awak dah buat sehabis baik. Jangan pikir sangat lah", lebih kurang macam tu lah. Dia jugaklah who keeps reminding on my social life, macam mana nak bergaul dgn org, dgn guys mcm mana, dgn girls macam mana, the Do's and Don'ts. And he also exposed me on the responsibilities of anak sulung in family. He made me realised how sometimes it is hard to be anak sulung. He had done so much thing for me I can't even say it all. He's my hero in almost everything. He protected me so well. Sometimes, bila datang my mood swing (biaselah perempuan), I realised his effort to cheer me up. But me myself yang kadang2 tak hargai mende tu. Ikut sangat emo ni kann. Dia selalu cakap dia tak sweet. Sayangggg, you are the sweetest person I've ever known tau tak. Sweet tu tak semestinya bagi bunga or chocs or nyanyi lagu utk saya. Bila awak dah niat nak mengahwini saya, which means you don't take this relationship for granted, it it sweet enough. Thank you so much for everything during Asasi. Good luck for the upcoming Bachelor study. I love you so much :)   

mood swing again ~

When the night has come and the land's dark, when the moon is the only light we'll see, look at the stars; can you count them? I miss you that much.

wwoowoooott

Memories :)

Tadi selak2 lecture notes physics, sekarang selak2 blog pulak. Hehehe. Tgh2 blogwalking (and stalking) sambil kunyah2 Cloud 9 and tunggu text form my hero, tgk ramai pulak yang post gambar kat blog. Gambar member2, gambar family, gambar classmates, gambar roomates and even gambar gf/bf. Nak post gambar jugaakkkk!! :P

the first photo of him that I have :) Ni time amali pertanian. *he's in white

The first photo of me and him. Time ni pegi main bowling dgn classmates lain dkt Mines. You were nothing at  this time, now you are my everything :) *serius tak sangka :D

Woot woot!! Abg hot main bowling lahh :P

Baju Sime Darby gituuu.. Chop, knp sekarang saya tak pernah nampak dah awk pakai baju ni? Dah gemok ea? :P

Tu jee. Heee :P

I LOVE YOU IJD :)

It's our

Monthly-versary

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI :)

When I stare at your face sometimes, my mind is actually thinking about how our future is going to be. 

Will I have the chance to stare at you again and again FOREVER?

 Only He knows it :)

But what you should know is,

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, FOREVER :)

IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI

Dear Nurul Nadirah,


Your voice, for me, is better than all my favorite songs put together.

Mood swing mood swing. Can I have someone to talk to? -.-

Thanks for hacking my blog Mr. Izat Jaris. I guess you are speechless too, so you write something here right? :P

People make mistakes. Me too. So just keep making self reflection and analyze ourselves. Don't be afraid to say sorry to someone we are wrong to. :) 

It's now truly clear that I'm not a good blogger. Dah semak samun dah blog ni. Jom lah tebas tebas sikit before it gets worse. The story is I just done my Test 1 for semester 3. Alhamdulillah everything goes well walaupun ade sikit sikit yang frust. But it's okay, just leave them to Allah S.W.T. No matter how hard we work or how bad we felt in the exam hall, at the end of the day, it's Allah that decides everything.Macam orang selalu cakap, usaha, doa and lastly tawakal. Betul lah tu! :D Tapi yang tak bestnye, I miss my homewtown : (. Ntah bila la dapat balik. Weekend pun sibuk. Sabar je lahh.. Finally to my sweetheart, here's a sweet song for you :)

Baby it's fate, not luck :)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Birthday Bash!!

Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday dear Jaris..

Happy birthday to you :D

* HAHA. Padan muka dua dua :P *

Happy 19th Birthday Sayang! :D

Mesti awak senang hati je kan sepanjang hari tu takde org pun nak baling tepung ke baling telur ke kat awak. Jangan nak senang hati sangat lahh. Malam pun jadi kot. Hehe. Mula mula ingat nak buat siang tu. Tapi masing masing busy dengan class. Malam tu lepas buat report bio sama sama, dia on the way balik bilik,the guys duk ambush mamat ni.  Then, diorg dtg, suruh die letak segala kertas,pencil case and phone kat tepi dulu and finally SPLAAASHHHH!! Amik kauu tepung campur serbuk kari campur air ape entah tapi disgusting laa.. HAHA!  Then dtg la saya membawa cake chocolate moist yg sangat lah sedappp dengan 1+9 batang lilin di atasnya. Tengah tengah makan tu saya pulak yang kena kannn. Suka la tuu saya kene.. Haishhh.. Redha je laahhh.. -.- But anyway, I was so proud to be the master-planner for this prank together with helps from Alwis, Faez, Bobo, Google, Ahmad, Ziqou, Cheeqa, Fanaa, Mal, Kiwa, Ana, and Dhira. Thanks so much you guys for coming and helping! :D For my dear Izat Jaris, I hope this 19th birthday will make you a better,wiser and of course a mature man. Wishing you all the best in your study and your future. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :)

The Sixth

Finally dapat jugak update blog! Weheee :D Ok first thing first, last 31st January 2012, it's our 6 monthly-versary. Alhamdulillah :) Rasa macam baru je lagi kenal awak sayang. Tak sangka dah 6 bulan. Dalam masa 6 bulan ni jugak lah awak dah buat saya happy sangat sangat sangat. Lantaklah orang nak cakap ape pun, yang penting we are happy together. Kan kan kan? :D Every single moment we had together saya takkan lupa. Segala  movies yg kita tgk kat wayang, ice skating, bowlings, makan makan, jalan jalan and macam macam lagi tu, semua saya takkan lupa. I love you so much! :)

HAPPY 6th MONTHLY-VERSARY MY DEAR IZAT JARIS DZULKIFLI :)

You did nothing wrong dear. It's just me who still have to put on much more effort on my study. And of course, your support,helps and prays are truly needed. Thanks for guiding me all this while. InsyaAllah, I'll be giving my best for this semester. 

Good luck to you too :) 

31st December 2011

WE ARE ALREADY

MONTHS !

Thank you so much Mr. Izat Jaris Dzulkifli for making half of my 2011 wonderful. 

Let's make our forever the most amazing ever.

 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :)

..wait, there's some more..

CONGRATULATIONS MY DEAR SIS, MARSULIHA MOHD ASHAARI 

ON YOUR WEDDING WITH MOHD AZMIR AHMAD

:)

I'm wishing you only happiness and joy in living your lives together. 

May your days are filled with love and sweetness towards each other.

...last but not least..

GOODBYE 2011, 

WELCOME

:)